your life path is your to-do list
transferring the blog to my website and hoping to keep it a secret for 6 months at least although anyone can come on here and look i suppose . going to look at a big studio space in the part of wyckoff i used to live near. ive been dreaming of having a big space for Heaven Is and its difficult to get the other members to want the same and i understand. but feeling hopeful about the real estate agent who is also an artist and wants to work with me to find something for us. i figure with a group of us, a nice big space with windows in the neighborhood shouldnt be too unaffordable. my dream is to have a big studio office space where there are several of us working and dancing and reading and writing at any given point and it can become a meeting place for all of us as well as an occasional pop up or workshop location. i feel bad its all i can talk about with anyone, heaven is the main subject on my mind. i just have more ideas than i can keep up with and i truly believe in my power to materialize although its becoming clear that the first step to that is getting good at convincing a group. im assuming the studio idea will be on hold for a while but it doesn’t mean i cant tour spaces in the meantime right? its harmless to dream i hope.
next week i want to get started on this personal conceptual photo sculptural performance project i’ve had on my mind for a year now. i want to ask neil and meg to come with me to a photo studio and help me. i need to also text back sam at eureka press to see when a good day for me to go up to kingston is. itll be hard because i’m working at the restaurant all of the time but that will be over soon when im promoted and ill be flexible again.
i want to go to pole, im thinking of returning to the club and i think about that every day. i currently dont have a ss card so i need to get a new one before i can even really make that decision.
ive been weightlifting at the gym in a crazy way again and im constantly feeling sore which i appreciate. i have much less time now, i want to go twice a week but find myself going only once, hence the desire for pole and maybe yoga. today i also have to grab the quilt squares from relax lounge to give to celeste later.
im grateful for these five things today:
clean room
nice fall weather all the time
beautiful hair
not in the same job / relationship / headspace i was in exactly a year ago
the confidence i have in my abilities to see things through even when nothing has materialized yet
yesterday gwen sent me her list of gratefulness and i think ill make a list every day now too. im also feeling especially grateful for gwen celeste george neil and the line cook at my job this morning.